P.S. This is not to anyone in particular but a general post to challenge even myself:

It is ok to hurt. It is ok to be angry. It is ok to be in pain. It is ok to grieve. It is ok to feel betrayed and disappointed. You can be moody if you see it fit. It is ok to have a meltdown. It is ok to be sad, confused,whatever feeling adjective that exists that depicts a "negative" emotion.."negative" being used tongue-in-cheek here coz all feelings are legit,authentic...and yes, they are yours...if you can think it,label it..even if you can't put a word to it,it is completely ok to go through your motions and do whatever it is you need to do till the morning in your life gets here.
But when in that season,what is not ok is you lashing out at other people.it is by no means ok to be mean or hurtful or condescending or nasty or to treat people as if they don't matter or worse still like they don't exist...or like they should be the only ones who should go out of their way to understand you while you make no effort to meet them halfway...whether they have anything to do with your season..and especially if they don't even have a clue what your drama is all about. It is unfair...well the world generally is...and it is wrong...and it is selfish!!
You do what you need to do in your season...and take all the time you need too...but as you get all engrossed in whatever baggage you're dealing through, take a brief minute or two...please...and get up and out of yourself. See that the other people in your world who you expect to understand you even though they have no clue what is there to understand have their own drama which by the way they are not displacing on you. Get your proverbial head out of the sand that you are slowly but surely filling with yourself yourself and yourself and realize that you're not all that matters in this world. Maybe in that little brief minute you will realize...if you can be man or woman enough to get beyond your ego and allow God to let you see...you will realize that you are not the sun...and not everything revolves around you. That realization may hurt your soft spongy grandiose ego a little bit...but it will pass...like everything in the world does...and you can finally be free from the Guantanamo Bay you are caging yourself in. For your own sake if no one else's, do so before you make yourself dizzy from all the circles you're making around you.
This is not to discount anyone's experience because pain is subjective and absolutely personal. We may not understand it or even have a clue of what it is that is killing you deep inside. We respect it. We acknowledge it. And it is ok if you don't want to deal with it now now now. Yes, people will try to understand...and will empathize with you for sure. They will even want to help if you can allow them to. Not everyone will be patient enough though to see past your mask...and they shouldn't have to. Plus in this life, in order to qualify to join "the club of the mature", you must take responsibility for your actions regardless of the reasons behind them. Excuses, rationalizations and self-justifications are for wimps...they have their own little support group...in some bush in Mars. But wait...there are no bushes in Mars. Get the point??
For the person on the receiving end of people's masks, may God help you to know when the drama has nothing to do with you so that you can guard your heart from unnecessary and purposeless suffering. May you have the wisdom to know that sometimes what is being projected towards you is what the person feels about themselves...for we can only love others as we love ourselves right?? And even if you are at the heart of the situation and you're partly to blame, may God help you to learn to take what is helpful and what will build you...and trash the rest.
‪#‎Deuces‬!! ‪#‎Blessedweekend‬