Lesson from God's classroom

My conviction has almost always been that love should be rational.Just because someone is in love doesn't mean they should flush their brain down the toilet.And whereas that still holds true ,it dawned on me this morning that if love were rational, i would have no chance with my God.His love for me...for you...is beyond reason.Many times i assess my life and wonder"what is wrong with this God??How can He still soooooo love me like that??"and me and my left brain are totally hushed up!!We talk of cheating spouses...i cheat on God all the time idolizing all these other things and people.We talk of distance in relationships because our boyfriends/girlfriends/spouses choose to spend time with other interests...i do that A LOT with my God...and the list goes on of how skewed my relationship with Him often is...but He NEVER throws in the towel on me.He will never tell me "Njeri i can't do this anymore...blah blah blah!!"I was humbled...overwhelmed.
Forgiving has never come easy for me.It takes a lot to get to me but letting go when i feel aggrieved is one of the areas where God isn't through with me yet.I still hold on to "love others as you love yourself"[Mt 22:39; Mk 12:31] (as opposed to MORE than yourself or AT THE EXPENSE of yourself which is extremely common in love relationships)...but my prayer is that the realization of how much slack God has cut me...how much He has continued to forgive me...how much He sees Christ's righteousness in me (2 Corinthians 5:21) even when I am in the deepest of deep in sin and how He sees what I can be instead...may this realization of His amazing non-logical irrational crazy love for me lead me to the desire to love others the same way...coz love is crazy!!